on a journey

Well the countdown is on for my time to leave for the summer. Im so excited for this last month. And I am even more excited to come back to school in the fall. My mind races as I think of what God will have me doing this summer. There are so many things that I would love to do for myself. But I have decided that I will not do things for myself yet what God would have me do. Everday I see a change in myself which is hard because I used to wear a mask. The mask is 100% gone and im enjoying that everyday. There seems to be so many jobs out there in the world, yet none that really tug at my heart. I love to be outside yet with people and not many jobs allow for that. I dont want to be kept inside a building this summer yet I do not want to be away from home for weeks at a time. This is where I know I am going to have to trust God with my life. He has the job for me and I know that I will enjoy it. I just need to have faith that when I get home, I will know where I will be put. I know where I will serve this summer..

At the same time this summer I would love to go to pembina bible camp, it would be a horrible thing not to go. I have been to that camp everysummer from the time i was 5 years old to now at 18. It would seem different not to go because everysummer your there working and having fun but is it what God really wants this summer? Will my job allow me to go yet again for another year? It seems so weird to not really know where you are going to be. When all your life you have had things planned long in advance and now its like living life at the moment, living it and not knowing what could happen when you turn around. It is not a bad thing though. It stretches you and definantly takes you out of your comfort Zone. Which is one thing im enjoying is not being that person who does nothing unless it is withing her comfort limits. Anyways I have written enough today. This is all I got for this sitting. I must say I am excited to see where God is taking me everyday.